Numb....

Numb....

....and so thro this drama ridden
Poison laced climax of constructed blame
We traverse the spoils left
And find ourselves now numb
Emotionless and devoid
We offer cold comfort from dead eyes
While our arms grip in empty
And meaningless attention
Never more to give true
Never again to give honestly
Left only with a sickening and mistaken
Monotone of pointlessness
I mourn now the forgotten
Left dying while this intrigue plays out
But my grief is now tempered
And has been corrupted by
Familiar ghosts from childhood
Remembered with reluctance
The tears that once flowed unbidden
Seem now failed in their meanderings
And the knotted canker
That once twisted and cavorted inside
Now streams sublimely within
Replaced by the confusion and doubts
That have always preceded your word
With matriarchal wickedness
You purr as your novel unfolds
The reality of which
Is always so in distinct opposition
To that remembered or witnessed
These lamentable feelings that sweep
Thro every room your breath taints
Cause such suffering and dismay
Such terrible pointless games are played out
Over this beautiful bed of death
Such awful words have revealed
The true intentions of your malice
As you feed from your trough
Filling your sick face with satisfaction
While those surrounding can only
Watch in such all-encompassing disbelief
Why take such a moment in time and make it dirty
Why steal these precious memories and make them sour
Why make this play before the dying is done
I feel sorrow now not for those leaving
But for the future plight of the left behind
Soon to find no solace
And all too soon to point the arthritic finger of blame
I refuse to accept these continued falsehoods
Much as I will renounce all claims to me
For once the end is decreed
I will forevermore be untouchable
Now knowing your truest and most deepest name
Offers to me the confidence to remain
In harmony with myself
For my actions to come
For I will have the good grace to ensure safety
And that all needs are satisfied
I will my head hold high
And honour that given
As meaning was shared in the absence of sound.